Wednesday, July 16, 2014

I'd rather be rejected than cancelled
Because the former indicates disinterest from the start
And I'm okay with that
Because not everyone likes what I do

The latter however, gives you hope from the beginning
Hope
Hope and expectations 
Hope and expectations and excitement
Before the other party picks something over you even though you were first
Probably because that something else is more urgent
Probably because that something else is more important
Probably because that someone else is more important
Probably because you aren't as important and it's okay to disappoint you over the something else
And it sucks especially when it's something you were looking so forward to
And it sucks especially when so many people have let you down before
And it sucks especially because you thought it was going to happen
And it sucks especially because it's you.

Monday, July 14, 2014

I'm hoping that it lasts
Though we know it won't.
Because deep down I know
That the cause would probably be me
Unable to be composed
Unable to come clean
Unable to be as perfect and you thought
Eventually destroying it all

Afterall
That's the only thing I'm capable of.

Friday, July 11, 2014

I had daren't say that you took my breath at first sight
At the thought of being embarrassed to tears by the sound of your laughter
Magic happened
When you said I took yours then too

Tuesday, July 8, 2014

Unfortunately the cause of my greatest joys as well as my saddest tears

Thursday, June 26, 2014

'Cause you brought out the best of me
A part of me I'd never seen
You took my soul wiped it clean
Our love was made for movie screens

Saturday, June 21, 2014

Just a week ago,
I thought that I knew people;
How they act in situations, the lilt in their voices, the sound of their footsteps.
More or less who they were.

Then I remembered
That people are not as they seem
The once so familiar person you knew
Disappeared

All within a day

Wednesday, June 18, 2014

Heal what has been hurt
Change the fates design
Save what has been lost
Bring back what once was mine